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Letter from Stanford Rape Victim's Boyfriend to Judge Surfaces

"Jane Doe's father attended portions of the legal proceedings and was deeply disturbed after viewing pictures"

 

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Dear Judge Persky:

I am writing to provide a statement describing the impact of the three felony sex crimes that Brock Turner committed against Jane Doe.

Specifically, I want to lay out my observations on the impact of Brock Turner's crime on five individuals: Jane Doe's father, her mother, her surrogate grandmother, myself, and most importantly, Jane Doe.

Jane Doe's father was one of the two first family members to hear that Brock Turner had sexually assaulted his daughter. Jane Doe sat down her mother and her father approximately one week after the incident, and told them about the assault.

I warned them not to read the police report, for fear that he would be further overwhelmed by disturbing images of the assault, and he did not read the report.

During the ensuing criminal trial, Jane Doe's father attended portions of the legal proceedings and was deeply disturbed after viewing pictures of Jane Doe's unconscious body crumpled up and on the grass, his daughter appearing as a disheveled corpse, lying next to a dumpster.

Jane Doe's mother is also indignant at many of the unfounded accusations made by the attorney representing the defendant during the trial, which often attacked Jane Doe's character and upbringing in a way that was fundamentally disrespectful to her family

He, along with the rest of Jane Doe's family, has now been forced to hear, many times and in a public setting, the step-by-step story of how two passers-by found a man on top of his daughter's body while she was unconscious.

He, like many of us, has been haunted by the unsettling imagery of Jane Doe's underwear being pulled off pulled off of her body by a stranger, and the sexual acts that followed.

Jane Doe's father has done everything in his power to support his daughter's recovery over the past sixteen months and the year-long trial, during which time Jane Doe felt compelled to suspend her career to focus on the criminal proceedings.

He has been affected emotionally, spiritually, and financially by the tragic crime committed against his eldest daughter.

Jane Doe's mother heard about the sexual assault at the same time as Jane Doe's father.

Jane Doe's mother also attended the trial, and she too was forced to view sickening pictures of Jane Doe that shook her to her core.

She heard her daughter's first-hand account, at home and then again at the criminal proceedings, of waking up in the hospital and being probed with various instruments during her medical evaluation.

Needless to say, Jane Doe's mother is also indignant at many of the unfounded accusations made by the attorney representing the defendant during the trial, which often attacked Jane Doe's character and upbringing in a way that was fundamentally disrespectful to her family.

Moreover, the trial has been tremendously taxing for Jane Doe's mother, not to mention her entirely family, who have been outraged at the effort and publicity required to convict Brock Turner of his crimes - even given the convincing body of evidence and direct witness statements from the two men that found him thrusting on top of her unconscious daughter.

Jane Doe's mother has been emotionally crushed at hearing, in painstaking detail, the story of her eldest daughter being so clearly violated.

Jane Doe's surrogate grandmother, at age 86, attended every day of the trial that she was allowed to attend.

She, an incredibly pure woman who played a large role in raising Jane Doe, also heard in gory detail the account of Brock Turner's sexual assault on Jane Doe, his running away after he left her next to a dumpster, and Jane Doe's emotional distress as she woke up in a hospital, was physically probed, and was forced to piece together what had been done to her the previous night.

Jane Doe's godmother saw every vile picture that was shown to the jurors during the criminal proceedings.

Jane Doe's surrogate grandmother told me that she cried with force and despair during each and every day of the trial, as she sat and calmly listened to the story of a stranger assaulting her granddaughter

Jane Doe's surrogate grandmother told me that she cried with force and despair during each and every day of the trial, as she sat and calmly listened to the story of a stranger assaulting her granddaughter.

Jane Doe's surrogate grandmother has been stalwart in support of her granddaughter.

That support has certainly had an intense, negative impact on her life.

I myself, as Jane Doe's boyfriend, am tormented by Brock Turner's sexual assault.

I became physically ill when I first read the police report. I heard Jane Doe attempt to speak to me that night. We spoke on the phone roughly thirty minutes before the incident.

I remember very well that I could instantaneously recognize that she was extremely, disturbingly intoxicated - she was unable to articulate coherent words or sentences.

I take a personal stance that Brock Turner knew, without a doubt in my mind, that Jane Doe was vulnerable and extraordinarily drunk before he sexually assaulted her.

I know now that within forty minutes after I heard my girlfriend in this state, another man approached her and sexually penetrated her.

I now also know, having heard it said aloud countless times, seen it published in the media, and been tormented by the image as I try to fall asleep, that Brock Turner was found on top of my unconscious girlfriend.

Two exchange students from Sweden found him doing exactly that - thrusting on top of my unconscious girlfriend.

While it should go without saying, the above images haunt me in a deeply disturbing way.

Most importantly, of course, Jane Doe has been impacted profoundly and permanently by Brock Turner's crimes.

I live with Jane Doe and have observed first-hand the impact she has felt.

The assault has left her with a physical insecurity that did not exist before the incident. After the assault, if I have not yet gone to bed, Jane Doe sleeps with the lights on

First, it has been obvious that she feels deep-seated pain, disturbance, and anger in response to this violation of her intimacy.

I have experienced pieces of it vicariously, because I have been so close to her.

While I cannot fully articulate her underlying suffering, I can describe the actions that I have observed after the incident.

There are four concrete examples from Jane Doe's everyday behavior that reflect the pain that the assailant has inflicted on her.

Jane Doe has hated talking about the night that she was violated, and she responds with intense emotion whenever the incident is brought up.

Often, when the night she was sexually assaulted has been mentioned, Jane Doe has expressed anger toward everyone around her, including myself, and she has become overwhelmed with intense feeling of resentment.

Normally, Jane Doe is one of the least verbally hostile people I have met.

After the criminal case, however, she has had a habit of becoming deeply upset and abrasive whenever the topic of Brock Turner's sexually assaulting her has been broached.

Jane Doe is now fearful of sleeping alone, particularly with the lights off.

The assault has left her with a physical insecurity that did not exist before the incident.

After the assault, if I have not yet gone to bed, Jane Doe sleeps with the lights on. I have known Jane Doe to be a very independent, secure, and confident person, otherwise.

The sexual assault was clearly responsible for this change in behavior.

Perhaps most tellingly, Jane Doe habitually hides in our apartment bathroom and locks the door.

I understand, from speaking with her about this behavior, that when she does so, she simply needs time alone to heal.

She has locked herself in the bathroom roughly for hours at a time, unprompted. I can hear her crying through the bathroom door, when I am nearby.

Similarly, when Jane Doe becomes too overwhelmed with pain, she leavers our apartment during the day to walk on the streets of the city, in order to be alone.

Jane Doe feels compelled to go outside so that she can vent, and physically get away. I have learned that she simply needs a therapeutic activity to handle internally the damage done by Brock Turner.

Practically, Jane Doe's life and career have been disrupted by the sexual assault and the legal activities that followed.

When Jane Doe becomes too overwhelmed with pain, she leavers our apartment during the day to walk on the streets of the city, in order to be alone. Jane Doe feels compelled to go outside so that she can vent, and physically get away

Before the incident, Jane Doe was a high-performing member of her team at her full-time job. After the incident, Jane Doe was emotionally distressed and logistically overwhelmed in dealing with the aftermath and the beginnings of a complex legal case.

As a result, Jane Doe was chronically late to work. She felt compelled, due to her embarrassment at her own unusual tardiness and absences, to tell her boss in confidence that she was the victim in this high-profile case.

Jane Doe did not feel comfortable sharing the intimate nature of the case with her boss; however she felt that she was forced to do so given her inability to perform her normal responsibilities of her job during the ongoing legal proceedings.

Jane Doe's boss was of course very supportive, and she offered Jane Doe time off and the opportunity to rejoin her team whenever the legal activities had subsided.

It has now been approximately sixteen months. Looking back, the full array of legal activities had subsided.

It has now been approximately sixteen months. Looking back, the full array of legal activities and trial has been invasive, public and long - and extended by Brock Turner, who insisted on taking a losing case to trial.

Given that the resulting legal activities are still continuing, Jane Doe has still not restarted her job in a full-time capacity.

Understandably, Jane Doe is indignant that the assailant tormented her family, violated her intimacy and security, intruded on her privacy, and drove her to put her full-time job on hold.

But we should by no means view the impact of Brock Turner's crime as limited to the behaviors above.

Jane Doe has been unusually strong and noble during this criminal case. Consequently, she has often chosen to suppress her displays of emotion.

I know, from conversations with Jane Doe, that she has decided to be a leader for sexual assault victims around the world in this case.

She has shown a boldness in her everyday interactions, as a strong leader form women and victims, that drives her to show confidence, pride and nobility over weakness or pain.

I have worked to fInd exceptions to that boldness when describing her aforementioned behavior.

Jane Doe's proud ability to stymie many of her outward displays of vulnerability, of course, does not mean that she has not been pummeled by a greater, underlying impact.

I know that Jane Doe has restrained and kept inside of her much of the immense, negative impact that Brock Turner's sexual assault has caused her.

Thousands of people have read, in news stories, online media, and television coverage, about the details of Jane Doe being violated by a stranger.

Jane Doe has read a stoic police report describing two Swedish strangers, a college fraternity brother, and two policeman, finding her naked and unconscious on the ground.

Jane Doe has allowed me, in confidence and only due to our closeness, occasional glimpses of the pain that comes with this public violation of her body.

But, I know that Jane Doe has restrained and kept inside of her much of the immense, negative impact that Brock Turner's sexual assault has caused her.

Brock Turner's sexual assault represents a complete violation of Jane Doe's body, her intimacy, and her right to make her own sexual decisions as a woman.

Jane Doe is a courageous woman and should be commended for her fortitude.

All in all, given my familiarity with Jane Doe, I believe that the true impact felt by Jane Doe has been significant and profound, far beyond the anecdotal behavior that I have detailed.

Letter from victim's boyfriend has emerged.

Jane Doe has responded with impressive strength, given the circumstances, and with the defiance of a woman who respects her body.

Please do not confuse that strength with the deep, negative, and permanent impact that comes with a man publicly sexually assaulting a woman while unconscious, and the year-long media-ridden trial that has followed.

Sincerely,

NAME REDACTED

See Also: http://www.smobserved.com/story/2016/06/11/schools/brock-turner-snapchatted-a-photo-of-his-victims-breasts-to-friends-after-the-attack/1414.html

 

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